snowI was late. As usual. I was walking my “mall speed” as a friend always calls it, and I wasn’t paying attention. It was cold; colder than I’d felt it in a long time and all I wanted was to be in my car and on my way. But, in one blink my view changed from sidewalk to sky, with the ice breaking my fall. I was more startled than hurt, more scared of the realization of what had just happened than the actual occurrence. I, in my dress, high heeled boots and work bag, on my way to conquer the TV world had been beaten before I even reached my car.

Some days God is catching us when we fall, but most days He is preparing us for it. It’s not that He wants us to lose our traction, but He knows our minds and hearts so well He wants to give us every possible tool we can use to break our fall. Scripture acts as my cushion in every life circumstance just as my three layers of clothes, hat and gloves did when I was lying on a solid piece of ice this morning.



It can be painful when we are caught off guard and find ourself on our back wondering where it went wrong. When we fail, when our life seems to crumble before our eyes, it can bruise our pride and wreak havoc on our emotions.

But praise Jesus, God wants better for us! Which is why He left us two things here on this Earth: His Word and His Spirit. He allows us to be shaken up, but He promises to never let us go (Romans 8:37-39). And what is so amazing about God is that after we’ve been shaken up, pushed down, and are lying on our back looking up to the heavens…we learn once again just how big our God is. Through the experience we learn more about ourselves and the love He has for us. In the moment of control lost, we recognize our need, dependence and salvation in Him.


Broken–five minute Friday


One of the most difficult things to overcome in any organization, business, even a family is broken communication. If everyone isn’t on the same page then goals cannot be met and efficiency will always be at a loss. But the greatest tragedy I think is having broken communication with God. The Old Testament Jews had to go through their priest to talk with God. With the bite of fruit off the forbidden tree, broken was our relationship. But, now, we have Jesus as our mediator, we have Jesus who has fixed our relationship. Our communication is broken now by our own choice and not our plight. God wants restoration, he wants redemption for His people and you are His people because He made you. Let us embrace our Savior and praise our LORD, for our relationship is no longer broken.


Think back to when you were a child. Didn’t you always wish you were your older sibling’s age because then you could finally do what they do? Didn’t you wish you could be just a little taller so you could ride that one ride at the amusement park? Are you still wishing you were just a little bit different, in a different circumstance?

Tonight I sit reflecting on where I am right now in life and where I want to go. I’m looking back on all the times I said, “If only I were older, smarter, prettier, stronger…” and the list goes on. I’m reviewing some of the fears I’ve had even over the last few days and what has struck me the most is my fear of not being “there” yet. The fear of not having all the tough questions sorted out in my mind, of not having decisions about family, career and faith all made and tied up in a nice bow. I fear growing. I just want to be grown.

Growth is a process, not an instance. How I make decisions, how we all make decisions, is based on our experience and our influencers. But experiences are not gained if we never step out and do something; that just leaves us at the mercy of our teachers, parents and other influencing figures in our lives. I’m not disregarding the importance of their council, but in the end decisions are ours and ours alone.

I’m having to learn that growing is what God made us to do. Paul talks in Ephesians about how we should grow in the knowledge of Christ so we will no longer be like infants tossed about by the waves. God formed us in our mother’s womb so we might grow and one day know Him again. We were made to grow in grace and knowledge, we were made to grow, so why am I trying to stunt my own growth? It’s not that I don’t want to grow, it’s that I want to already be grown and so therefore allow myself to be forever in a state of limbo, wanting more but not seeking it. We must embrace the process allowing God to teach us and fill us with His Spirit, right now, in this moment. Growth is a process and today I choose to trust in God’s plan for my growth and His glory.

To Be Brave

Five Minute Friday: where women from all over the blogosphere come together to write about the same topic for five minutes. Click on the icon to read more.

5minutefridayTo be brave is to be vulnerable, something I am deathly afraid. I keep my emotions in check and gain control of situations. But the other day, I was vulnerable, and I didn’t know what to do. I broke down, I ugly cried in front of strangers. I was out of control and I felt my defenses crumble. For those who choose to be vulnerable and who are willing to let their guard down, who give up control, I applaud you for you are truly the brave ones. God is showing me to have true friendships, one day a strong marriage, I have to learn to be vulnerable– by choice. I have to learn to allow myself to be out of control, to be vulnerable, to be brave, holding nothing back from God.

Five Minute Friday– Rest

As I shared with you a few weeks ago, a wrench has been thrown into my plans and so since then, I have been learning, failing, trying, to rest in Christ’s promises. I have been reading a lot of scripture, searching for answers, searching for clarity, and then my mother, my wonderful mother said, “You’ve been talking to God, but have you been listening Catherine?” You know it’s serious when she pulls out the full name. She was right though, I have been so busy doing, reading, talking, going over and over in my mind what could possibly be the answer that I neglected to wait patiently and listen.  So for now, I am seeking rest in the God of Peace, my Jehovah Shalom, confident He will grant me peace and clarity of what the future holds in His timing. Verses to meditate on: Matthew 7:7-8, Philippians 4:4-7, 2 Peter 3:9, Proverbs 20:2


Old, Not Obsolete, Stories

Jesus sitting with all the children, scary lions pacing around Daniel, Joseph in his beautiful coat, Moses parting the Red Sea, all images that graced the walls of my childhood Sunday School class. We would sit and listen to the amazing stories of the Bible, they were told much in the same way as my fairytale books were read to me each night, filled with adventure. It wasn’t until just a few weeks ago I realized I had allowed myself to skip over many of these stories. I knew the premise of the story and had not bothered to go back and delve deeper into the truths hidden there.

For the past year I have been a part of a Bible study group, doing a new devotional book every few months and though we had learned a lot from them, I know I was hungry for more. Hungry for the Word of God to speak directly. So, we eventually decided to begin reading the book of Daniel.

I confess I am not a theologian or a scholar. But I was so excited when I began reading this book, I just had to share some of my thoughts with you. So first off I encourage you to get out your Bible and turn to a passage you may not have read since you read it in your children’s Bible so many years ago. Read with me Daniel chapters 1 and 2.

  1. Daniel 1:17: God gave Daniel and his friends, wisdom and understanding, but he also gave Daniel the ability to interpret dreams. Have you ever looked at a gift or talent and wondered, when on Earth will I ever use this? I just wonder if Daniel did the same thing. I’m sure he was glad he was able to understand the unexplainable and have knowledge of many things even while he was held captive by this people, but I wonder if he thought his ability to understand visions and dreams was odd. Was he surprised when the day came that his gift was actually needed? (skip to Daniel chapter 2) The King was determined to kill all his wise men if they were not able to tell him what his dream meant. Daniel had a choice to make. He could watch he and his peers die a brutal death. Or he could try to interpret the dream and if he succeeded all would live. Their lives lay in his hands. Sometimes I feel myself shying away from something God has called me to do because the thought of others’ lives being dependent upon me is almost unbearable. It’s too much pressure don’t you think? But Daniel knew he had a gift and he decided to ask God if He could use it so these people would be saved.
  2. Daniel 2:17-18 – I love this. “Then Daniel returned to his house and explained the matter to his friends…He urged them to plead for mercy from the God of heaven concerning the mystery…” He knew the challenge, he accepted the challenge, then he went straight to his friends so they could all go to the throne of God to plead for mercy. And God listened. So many times we think we have to go through a situation alone and we hide our struggles because we think we have to take care of it. We have to keep control of the situation. Daniel admitted right up front he wasn’t in control and knew only God could bring about the salvation of the wise men of Babylon. And so he went to his friends and asked for prayer. When was the last time you went to a good friend and confided in them a specific prayer request?
  3. Daniel 2:30: “As for me, this mystery has been revealed to me, because I am greater in wisdom than any other living man. I was able to interpret the dream, O king so that you could see my greatness….” oh wait, that’s what I would have said, not Daniel! (just making sure you’re paying attention, seriously go read the book of Daniel!) Daniel 2:30 actually states: “As for me, this mystery has been revealed to me, not because I have greater wisdom than other living men, but so that you, O king, may know the interpretation and that you may understand what went through your mind.” How hard is it for you to give credit to the one who deserves all the praise? For me, at times it is like pulling teeth. I want to believe it is my abilities, my talents, my creativity that has succeeded, not God. But, who gave me those abilities? Talents? Creativity? Who gave me the opportunities to use them? God.  He deserves all the glory and all the praise.
  4. Daniel 2:39-49—Daniel interprets the king’s dream. The statue the king dreamed about was to prophesy the coming kingdoms that would crush each other until the ultimate kingdom, not made of man, would rule over all of them for eternity. God, through a dream to King Nebuchadnezzar, revealed Jesus’ coming! How cool is it that God, throughout all of the old testament revealed the promise of an everlasting kingdom, of a savior to come, to different people, prophets and even to those who did not know the Jewish God, Yahweh, Jehovah.

03-04-13 Daniel 2-20-23What did God reveal to you as you read with me today in Daniel 1 and 2? I’m  so excited to begin reading Daniel 3!

Challenge: My Bible study group and I are memorizing the following verse, feel free to join us! (be sure to print it out and put it on your mirror or refrigerator, tweet me a picture if you do! @morningreveals)

A Wrench In My Plan

Life threw a wrench in my plans and so my faith began to crumble.

Had I heard Him wrong? Had I done something or thought something that He’s punishing me for? Why can’t the plan just work like it was supposed to!

I realized, after my little pity-party, how easily I let truth slip away and let doubt and guilt engulf my life, shifting my focus from pleasing Him to myself. Just because a plan is not working does not mean I’m being punished or that I am going down the wrong path…it could…but even when I am seeking His guidance things can mess up; I am still in a world consumed with sin after all. Life will never be perfect, and yet when it isn’t I’m upset and go into pout mode. How well am I able to serve Him when I’m stuck in this attitude? I’m not able to. My focus has shifted from Him to me and when the focus is on myself His light isn’t being shown.

022613 graphic for blog-2So when plans seem to change, when life seems to be teetering between greatness and failure, do you sit there on the ledge hoping it will land on the side of greatness? Or do you put all your weight into making this stage of life great for Christ? I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. My plans are crumbling and so I may end up where I started. But the difference is whether I end up back in the same location as the same person or as a person closer to Christ.

Many are my plans, but God’s purpose will prevail (Proverbs 19:21). And I have to hold on to that. My plans are not set in stone, life happens, sin happens, but, His purpose will win out. What is His purpose you ask? To beckon His people back to Himself so He can love us completely and bring more glory to Himself.

Now that I’ve had time to think, I do not believe that I made the wrong move. I do not think he’s punishing me for something. I think he is just allowing me to be tested, to see what I choose to do with this life I’ve been blessed with, even when things are not going as I had hoped and planned. I must hold on to truth. Even when I sit here with my heart heavy and my eyes weary, I must hold on to truth. That is I must hold on to Jesus for He IS enough.

Changing My Prayer

In all honesty, I never thought I would be here. Not a college graduate still living at home. Not in this job I’ve been blessed with, but didn’t really know how to do. Actually I never thought I would be back at the church I was dedicated in as a child, being discipled by a group of Christian women I am proud to call my friends. And yet, here I am in this small town that I have always called home feeling blessed and stuck at the same time. I am so thankful for all God has taught me since graduating and the time I’ve had to deepen my relationship with my parents, but this doesn’t discount the restlessness I hold in my heart. I am in mid-step, afraid to not step away from home and yet I am also afraid to step into the unknown. So I stand here frozen with one leg glued to safety while my heart yearns for something more.

This is not where I thought I would be, and so for months I have allowed fear and the failure I already feel consume me. Starting today though, my prayer is changing. (And believe me it’s taken me a good while to get here). I had been praying, “Oh Lord please tell me what’s next!” Which in my heart translates to, “Lord, show me a way out!” And that is not how I need to look at this season of my life. So, today, it is now, “Lord what is it you want me to learn while I’m here? You clearly have me here for a reason and a season so help me to make it according to your will and not my feelings. And when the day comes, help me to fully step into the next season with confidence, courage and no hesitation.”

I don’t know the next season God has for me, but I do know he is preparing me everyday if I allow Him. My days of my own little pity-parties are not over because I am me and I know myself. The days of wondering what is next will probably continue. But, today my prayer changes and so therefore God will begin changing my heart; showing me how I can glorify Him now, today, and every moment after, no matter the season.

Dive (Five Minute Friday)

**This is the first week I’m a part of the Five Minute Friday blog posts! The following post is five minutes into my thoughts on the subject “Dive.”


I love diving into a new project. I feel exhilarated when I decide on that new thing to write about or design..

…..And yet in my mind right now I’m saying “big woop”, because what am I doing with my ideas? How are they helping anyone else? How are they pointing to my Savior? The Bible says that whatever I do should point to Him and yet I work so hard and for what? To make man proud of me. I’m diving into the quicksand of the world’s acceptance; because you see we will never be good enough for the world. There is always someone better, always something new to aspire too. We will never be the best, we will never be number one, even though isn’t that what we strive for everyday? We want to be the best career woman, the best mom, the best wife, the best friend, the best…at everything. Then, when we realize that isn’t possible, we realize just how small and insignificant we really are in this world. In that moment we realize our need for a Savior.  In that moment we realize what we should really be diving into is what God has set out for us, not into our own pool of pride-filled accomplishments that have no eternal impact.

Christ Is The God-Sized Dream Realized

I long for my life to be a love story, but what I fail to realize is that it already is.  The problem is my focus and my pride.  I look at everything in my life and wonder how it will lead me to the “one” and God looks at my life and wonders why everything in my life isn’t pointing to Him.  It’s a God-sized dream for a human to put aside her sinful nature and have her eyes fixed solely on God.  It’s a God-sized dream that He fulfilled in Christ.

2 CorinthiansDream-God-sized-Dreams-150x150 5:17-21: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation:that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”

Do you truly understand the God-sized dream God has already made real in you?  I confess I do not, not fully anyway. He has reconciled us to Himself and now our ministry is that of reconciliation also.  He has made us into a new creation where we are no longer bound to sin.  However, it is too easy for me to hold back God’s powerful, sustainable and life changing Word, because at the root, I am afraid it isn’t as powerful, sustainable and life changing as I profess it to be.  I lack faith and my expectations of His miracles, grace and mercy are low, because I hold my own human abilities above God’s. It’s called pride my friends.  But then I remember His dream realized. His dream to see His people return to Him. His dream that a people who chose sin over a relationship with Him would find their way back to His side. Reconciled.  I am reminded that I am a sinful woman who would be completely lost both mentally, emotionally and eternally without His Word, without Christ’s sacrifice and power over death. And right there is the hope.

Realizing this truth is what holds my faith steadfast and strengthens my ability to dream God-sized dreams. You see He’s already conquered the downfall of man, so what dream could possibly be too big for Him?

My desire for a man to love is still there and God knows that, but He is working in my heart to show me that true adventure, joy and happiness will not come with a wedding ring, but will come when I surrender fully to the God-sized dreams He has for me. With Him as my partner, leader, and guide, happiness will greet me, joy will shine through me and God’s adventures will redefine me.