I long for my life to be a love story, but what I fail to realize is that it already is. The problem is my focus and my pride. I look at everything in my life and wonder how it will lead me to the “one” and God looks at my life and wonders why everything in my life isn’t pointing to Him. It’s a God-sized dream for a human to put aside her sinful nature and have her eyes fixed solely on God. It’s a God-sized dream that He fulfilled in Christ.
2 Corinthians 5:17-21: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation:that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.”
Do you truly understand the God-sized dream God has already made real in you? I confess I do not, not fully anyway. He has reconciled us to Himself and now our ministry is that of reconciliation also. He has made us into a new creation where we are no longer bound to sin. However, it is too easy for me to hold back God’s powerful, sustainable and life changing Word, because at the root, I am afraid it isn’t as powerful, sustainable and life changing as I profess it to be. I lack faith and my expectations of His miracles, grace and mercy are low, because I hold my own human abilities above God’s. It’s called pride my friends. But then I remember His dream realized. His dream to see His people return to Him. His dream that a people who chose sin over a relationship with Him would find their way back to His side. Reconciled. I am reminded that I am a sinful woman who would be completely lost both mentally, emotionally and eternally without His Word, without Christ’s sacrifice and power over death. And right there is the hope.
Realizing this truth is what holds my faith steadfast and strengthens my ability to dream God-sized dreams. You see He’s already conquered the downfall of man, so what dream could possibly be too big for Him?
My desire for a man to love is still there and God knows that, but He is working in my heart to show me that true adventure, joy and happiness will not come with a wedding ring, but will come when I surrender fully to the God-sized dreams He has for me. With Him as my partner, leader, and guide, happiness will greet me, joy will shine through me and God’s adventures will redefine me.